I don't want to write about you any longer

I don't want to write about you any longer
Even if my hands would string the most beautiful words
For the sweetness of your thought entrances me
And I'd become lost, more lost than I already am.

I don't want to write about you any longer
As I'd once again smell the scent of your hair,
feel the softness of your touch,
The gentleness of your being.
And it makes me sad, sadder than I've ever been.

I don't want to write about you any longer
Lest you'd pervade my thoughts
like you always did, and still do
Then you'd once again be near, deludingly near.

 But not wanting to write about you
brings you back---
Fully, sweetly, though not really
So I won't write about you any longer
In the hopes that one day, I'll find
someone just as good, or even so much
better.